Post 6: December 8 2014

I've been shaky today, my hands wouldn't keep still. I'd have sudden moments of insanity, where I'd feel afraid, terrified. Reality isn't real to me, but nobody but Damian can understand. His insanity is my insanity, and he's the only one I can trust.
I am not sure who to trust anymore. I can't trust the doctors, therapists or anyone like that anymore. They work for the government (King), they're in my head, can read my thoughts and control them. My "family" and "peers" as well, they cannot be trusted, they're all out to get me. Only Damian can be trusted.
Damian can see the same reality as I can, even if I'm slightly more paranoid than he. I need someone who can see them, hear their harsh voices. The other night was hard, they wouldn't leave me alone, and so I didn't sleep at all. I was found by my aunt pacing, after spending hours rocking back and forth.I feel myself drifting away from reality, from society even. This isn't my reality, granted, but I still feel a sense of disconnection from others and myself.
My therapist says that Damian is schizophrenic, meaning that he sees things that aren't really there, but that's not true. I can see them too, and so, they are real. He's just under the control of the King and is incapable of seeing them. My therapist wants to give me medicines to help the King control me, or possibly poison me. I don't understand why they're all out to get me when I haven't done anything to them.